I have about a day and a half left in China now. I am trying to make myself happier and not be sad about leaving … but I’m afraid that my efforts simply aren’t working much. I am simply really sad to be leaving so many friends behind and my home on Earth. I have decided that this is what China has become in my heart. I truly love China and its many, diverse people. I am trying to accept Papa’s plan for me to go back to America though it is extremely difficult for me now. Yet I know that His plans are always best and right.
This morning I watched a lot of Chinese TV I think mostly because I am so down now about leaving. Around 11 AM, Jun Ling and her son arrived here. There were no buses for her to make it here at 10 AM. I really love them both and am glad that we were able to spend more time together. We went to an Olympic venue close by, perhaps the soccer stadium. I really don’t know which venue it is, but it is in Shunyi. Afterwards, we did a little more walking and then went to McDonald’s. I treated everybody to show Tai Dar love. He enjoys McDonald’s and mentioned it yesterday. I really enjoyed loving on him and his mama through a McDonald’s meal. :)
I still hope and pray to see Daryl. I tried to use the hotel’s telephone but couldn’t because it only allows in-house calls. I will try a little later to contact him again. I hope to see him soon and get a picture with him before I return a photo shop’s camera. I am just discouraged now.
(9:22 PM) Still depressed that I am leaving soon … but Papa did allow me to finally connect with Daryl this evening. We made plans to connect tomorrow and spend my last day together. I will again need Papa’s help for that. This afternoon I went out to take more pictures of Beijing. I went to the nearby park and enjoyed its sights. My favorite part was the greenhouse. I wished that I were staying to buy a plant.
My depression has let me watch some very lovely footage of places in China. Now I am watching a travelogue show about Zhangjiajie in Hunan Province. It is extremely lovely. The Tuja people live here. I hope that I will be able to go there some day. It makes me think of my dear Chinese brother and makes me want to travel with him and take a yearly trip with him if I live long-term in China again. (This place has the world’s only giant salamanders! They’re cute!)
Earlier today or yesterday I watched a similar type show about Lushan. It also showed Jiujiang. Both are in Jianxi Province and are cities on the Yangtze River. Lushan is also home to Guling American School and Pearl S. Buck. I need to learn more. Edward Selby Little (an English missionary) also had a major influence here.
This entry is not chronological and a bit random, but there are two more parts of my day that I’d like to write about. The first is about my dinner. Tonight I ate at the hostel. I can’t read the menu much, and so, I just ordered something cheap. I truly had no clue what I was ordering and just literally prayed that it would be good in taste. It was a shredded cabbage in soy sauce dish. It really made me think how much more I need to learn Chinese.
Secondly and lastly, I thought about things with Ray, and it made me come to one heartfelt conclusion. This is the conclusion – Where man fails me, God cannot! I am sad that he (Ray) continues to harm folks here and in the US. I will continue to pray for him, his heart, and those here that I love and soon leave behind. I know though that had these things not come to pass that I could not have met Daryl and have done other things. It is His hand working in a Joseph-esque situation. I pray that others will understand this part of my time in China, as it will be very hard to explain back home.
But as for you, you meant evil against me; but God meant it for good … - Genesis 50:20
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