Little Broken Pot (LIC Retreat)

I wrote this to friends the week of Thanksgiving after returning from a retreat:

This weekend was intense especially on an emotional level to say the least for me. I personally saw myself and others transformed this weekend before my eyes! Praise Abba for his mercy and faithfulness to his beloveds. I wanted you all to know that I have been praying for you by name on a near daily basis for weeks now on and will continue to do so; I deeply feel called to keep our community in prayer ... and so ... if there is something specific you would like for me to pray for you, please email me or call.

For those of you that were in my small discussion group, know that I will be sending you an email to get to know me better since I was just overwhelmed during our time together. I know I didn't say a whole lot this weekend, but I wrote a lot. I offer you a poem from Saturday that I wrote and a song that I wrote back during the UES/LIC retreat back in March which is where my journey getting to know you all more intimately began.

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Little Broken Pot

Little broken pot

you were perfectly created and
are beautiful
But time had come to
smash you and
join you with the other broken pots
Once a lovely clay pot
now you are millions of colorful tiles
each one added carefully,
full of love to the others,
and so becoming
a timeless tile mosaic
that takes the Artist's breath away,
enamored by the beauty
and joyfully mindful of the
individual worth and need for every single tile
in the priceless living creation.



There's A New Song In My Heart

There's a new song in my heart today,

a song of freedom and of love.

A song birthed out of broken understanding

of who my King is and of what He's done.

A song that calls me to love and forgive

no matter how I've been wronged.

A song that bids me to let all else go

and simply awaken to my Father's gentle voice.

"Restore us, O God; make your face shine upon us,

that we may be saved." (Psalm 80.3)

Precious

I watched the movie Precious this morning. Go see it if you haven’t already! It has inspired me to take inventory of what I value as precious in my life and spurred me into action. So, the following is my list of what I find precious:

- having close, healthy relationships with my family
- having an intensely intimate love relationship with Jesus Christ
- maintaining intimate spiritual accountability with strong Christians
- pursuing social justice (currently in the South Bronx but in truth) wherever God places me
- acquiring a master’s degree from Columbia University (Chinese Language and Literature) and New York University (Special Education)
- pursuing missions and international travel
- returning to China to teach English and continue in-person the friendships I have there
- daily living my life out with purpose for the glory of Abba

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John Gibson
I saw Precious tonight...it was something else. Very disturbing and sad, but very realistic because I know those things happen to people. And yeah, like you it makes me thankful for a lot of what you mentioned above, especially healthy relationships with family. We are so blessed.
Didn't know you were going for your master's at Columbia and NYU. That's great. :) Just don't let the liberals brain-wash you. lol I'm only half-joking, btw...I seriously do hope you'll think critically and make sure you discern what's being taught against the backdrop of Scripture. That has to be our foundation for any fight/cause for social justice, etc.

I'm sure you already knew that, though. ;-) Take care and God bless.

YWAM Prophecies (11.27.2009)

While at JHOP in Manhattan, Lindsey and Lauren from the YWAM Hawaii base prophesied and prayed over me. (I had wanted to leave early and would have missed out on this prayer and prophecy but decided to stay because it was more worth it to be prayed for and prophesied over rather than getting home by 11 PM.) During the time of prayer and prophecy there was a continual, rolling spirit of peace and gentleness. I believe in all of their words and write this here, so that I can remember Abba’s faithfulness to me. Here is what the girls spoke over me:

- I am perfectly loved and made.
- A spirit of prophecy will be released into my life.
- I have a loving, gentle heart.
- There will be an increase of the Holy Spirit within me to love people.
- God is ravished by me, sings and dances over me, and LOVES it when I look at him.
- I will have a greater ability to hear God’s gentle voice.
- I will be an encouragement to others.
- I will be given the deep ability to go deeper with Abba and have a deeper “Yes!” to his will.
- There will be refreshment in my life.
- There is a continual, rolling spirit of peace and gentleness within me ... which is the Holy Spirit.
- The lies and pain spoken into me are now broken and there will be healing.
- There will be encounter with Jesus daily and divine appointment to love others.

JHOP: Justice House of Prayer (NYC)

I look around the room and I see people set free to use their gifts to the full. It makes me wonder how I can help my brothers and sisters live out their callings and giftings to the full. How can I spur on missional living, the work of the kingdom? How can I help people realize and grow in their spiritual gifts? Where/how do I need to mature? How do I help release Heaven on earth, in the present living now? What do I need to do to release in to others their dreams and passions?

Notes from at TGC sermon on sex (Fall 2009)

Current mood: awake

“The heart wants what the heart wants.” - Woody Allen

Sex has incredible power over us. It is a mistake to think sex isn’t a big deal. Lust makes you want something without a connection; love makes you want someone/something with permanence.

Sex heals because: it is the art of God, it is a gift of God to be opened and we should be open in intimacy, it represents a nakedness and intimacy with God that gets better with age, it embraces God’s beauty in us and in our spouse.

God rejoices over me!!! (Isaiah 62:5)