Demons In My Face

I am exhausted; I think today was my hardest day yet. I finally fell to the dark forces and got frustrated at Hannah. I saw in my heart that I wanted to repay evil for evil rather than repay evil with good. I hit her only slightly with the door, but realized that part of me actually wanted to hurt her; I immediately repented to her.

Around that same time, Blaza also got demon-possessed briefly. He has autism, which is how things with him got started. If things aren’t done in the same routine, then he freaks out. I turned off his music, which he loves, as discipline for him not listening to me. I needed and wanted him to calm down and sit on the couch, but he didn’t do that after several requests. He freaked out for sure and eventually came at me. I was standing directly in front of the TV and DVD player. At first he was just normal, but then his face changed. It really looked exactly like the little demon boy in “The Passion” (movie) whose face changes. It was scary, but I just said right to the demon and Blaza, “In the name of Jesus sit down on the couch.” He immediately did so! I honestly thought as he headed straight for my face that he might bite me or attack me, but thankfully he didn’t; he just got right up in my face, and then, I said what I did knowing I had power. What a powerful name “Jesus” is!!!

Later tonight, I went in to check on Rebecah and Hannah. I sent them to bed early because they weren’t listening or obeying when I tried to teach them the Bible. I gave them warnings, but their misbehavior continued. What a sight to walk into their room! Rebecah had been peeling off the velour on the kids’ dresser. I made her clean it up and then I asked her why she did it; she couldn’t give me a reason. It was a really awful mess, and for me, this only makes things worse. I have begun to pray that I can be the scapegoat for all the bad and demonic here so that those I leave behind can have things go well for them. It really makes me think of Jesus; he took ALL our bad and all the blame so that we definitely could have a good life. I am going to try and get some EXTREMELY TO THE MAX needed sleep. Only a few more days here … and I continue to have mixed emotions about that. I am very thankful for the upcoming five days in Japan. It is good to have them as a relaxer before jumping back head first into American culture and my job. Thanks Papa!!!

Oh, before I forget, on the plus side I saw David be a friend and love his brother James and sister Hannah for the first time today. I think I finally got a piece of his heart. Tonight before bed he let me give him a hug and a kiss goodnight and told me, “Amanda, no go bye bye.” It made me smile cause it’s the opposite of what he’s been saying lately, and I didn’t expect him to ever say it.

Consider it a sheer gift, friends, when tests and challenges come at you from all sides. You know that under pressure, your faith-life is forced into the open and shows its true colors. So don't try to get out of anything prematurely. Let it do its work so you become mature and well-developed, not deficient in any way. If you don't know what you're doing, pray to the Father. He loves to help. You'll get his help, and won't be condescended to when you ask for it. (James 1:2-5)