Have you ever thought about this?

We don't have a priest who is out of touch with our reality. He's been through weakness and testing, experienced it all - all but the sin. - Hebrews 4:15 (The Message)

Therefore, it was necessary for Jesus to be in every respect like us, his brothers and sisters, so that he could be our merciful and faithful High Priest before God. He then could offer a sacrifice that would take away the sins of the people. - Hebrews 2:17 (New Living Translation)

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For the past two days I have been thinking about the last verse not knowing where exactly in the Bible it was but remembering the gist of the verse. It's been blowing me away to think of my Savior and King, Jesus, being tempted with things like homosexuality, murderous thoughts, rape, an ungodly marriage or just even an intimate relationship with any lady of his time. I mean ... I know that typically I don't think of Jesus even being tempted much less being tempted by things that society says are like the worst things ever that we could do. But the fact of the matter, the truth, is that Jesus was tempted and withstood it ALL!

As for me, I have been tempted greatly since this past weekend to get annoyed and frustrated with people that I really care about and love. I had lengthy intellectual and theological discussions with a new friend named Calvin this past weekend. He's actually a surfing and water skiing rocket scientist who lives in California; I met him in Louisiana at a friend's house though. Those conversations and the depth of them really have me longing for some rather serious talk with others here. I know that that is playing into my temptations to be frustrated and annoyed and just want to tune people out, all of which is horrible.

And so, today, from about the moment I woke up, I have really been in a battle to not give in to temptation. I feel horrid that this battle even exists within my heart and am so grateful for the many hugs given to me today and the concern shown from my co-workers also granted to me. I simply want to love others and please my royal Daddy. I don't want to tune others out or take any "me"-time as that always sounds so selfish to me. I find myself not knowing exactly what all to do except just keep looking unto Jesus for help and giving up my burdens to him. I don't want to crush my friends that I care about so much or vent on them at all ... and so, I write alone now knowing that this is helpful for me at times and is a kind of prayer also. And so for those that have read this, would you please pray for me if you are a fellow Christian? Thank you kindly for sowing into eternity!