Update from Throggs Neck (Bronx)

Life here while spacious has not lived up to my expectations. I am EXTREMELY LONELY and feel very, very, very isolated. Community is not being built here nor are connections with my my neighbors really. Furthermore, I have exceeded the point that I am okay emotionally away from my family. I didn't get to spend Thanksgiving or Christmas with them because if I traveled I couldn't move here and pay rent. It has now been over a year since I've seen my parents, and it's deeply depressing me. I am also not really working with the 2010 Census (47 hours total in five weeks). I have spent the past two weeks watching the Vancouver Olympics and giving my all to applying for different volunteer opportunities that require you to live in community. I want it that badly! I'm just trusting that God will open and close the right doors when the time comes to act on all of these different possible opportunities. Maybe I'm giving up too early, but I'm tired of crying these many tears (my face hurts from all the crying I did today) and tired from being this dejected.